Subtle_Fortitude

…strength of mind can be stronger than you think

My Big Bang

Posted by nuruliman45 on February 28, 2012

It’s been almost a full year of not updating this blog of mine.  This place is just full of invisible cobwebs, aiya!

A kind of ‘big bang’ came to me today.

“SubhanALLAH.  Oh my goodness!  Cepatnya masa berlalu, rasa macam baruuuu je amek kereta tu… pejam celik pejam celik, dah setahun!”

You see, my car reached its first ‘birthday’ today.  Now, basically in Malaysia, if you own your own car (which you pay the installments on your own!), it means that you’ve moved to a next phase in life where you can be considered as an independent person.

It came to me that it’s been just a little over a year since I started working at the place I’m currently working at – UiTM Machang.  Yes, being a content young lecturer teaching English for diploma students. Now, something just drove me to post something after such  a long time of abandoning this ‘subtle_fortitude’ fortress of mine.  And, I could bet that it’s because having a year being passed makes you REALLY want to go through what you’ve actually been through in such a while before you move on to the next year.  Am I right?

Well, for the past year, I’ve learned SO MUCH.  ALLAH has taught me so many things, give me the opportunity to experience awesome new things, feel new feelings, get to know and be close with SO many wonderful people… all which I didn’t dream I would have known and felt before.

Something valuable that I can share today is that for the past half a year or so, ALLAH has given me the chance to feel a certain deep pain that I’ve never felt before.  If you ask me to describe it, I can’t actually describe what pain it is.  It’s a mix of in-denying self-confusion and the fight to do what’s right.  During my undergraduate years, problems were different.  They stayed complicated to merely a certain extent; not really complex.  But, as I started working, and staying again with my family, there have been so many things to consider.  ALLAH wants me to develop inner strength, and yes, gain subtle fortitude :)  What I went through would be another entry altogether.  So ‘ll stop here.

My ‘big bang’ thoughts today made me conclude that:

Maturity you cannot gain, without first experiencing pain.

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“Who are you?”

Posted by nuruliman45 on March 2, 2011

I was fascinated by the answer of Imam Shahid Hasan al-Banna when asked who he was.  (He was assassinated and martyred in 1949)

Kalau ditanya kita ni siapa, mampukah jawab begini…?

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When once asked by a journalist to introduce himself, Imam Shahid Hasan al-Banna said:

“I am a traveler seeking the truth, a human searching for the meaning of humanity and a citizen seeking dignity, freedom, stability and welfare under the shade of Islam. I am a free man who is aware of the purpose of his existence and who proclaims: “Truly, my prayer and my sacrifice, my living and my dying are all for Allah, the Lord of the worlds; no partner has He. This, am I commanded and I am of those who submit to His Will.” This is who I am. Who are you?”

(source:  http://butterflyrubrics.wordpress.com/2005/12/13/al-mathurat/)

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Time for B.M.

Posted by nuruliman45 on February 19, 2011

What??? B.M.??

 

…Yes, Bahasa Melayu..ingat ape tadi ek? :-p

 

This is my first official post in Malay…

I figured that there are certain things which I would feel more expressive if written in Malay.  I’m not sure how far I can go on writing in Malay, but I’ll take a whack at it.  hehe.

 

So, starting today, I’ll be using both languages, English and Malay for my posts.

Ehem..Jadi, mulai hari ini, saya akan menggunakan dua bahasa, Bahasa Inggeris dan Bahasa Malaysia untuk post-post dalam blog ini.

(haha, took a little time to translate there…)

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The End…or New Beginning for Egypt?

Posted by nuruliman45 on February 2, 2011

Since the so called chaos sparked in Egypt, there’s only one main thing in mind: Abdul Rahman (a.k.a. Dromey), my younger brother; 3rd sibling in the family.

He contacted my parents on the first day of the riot.  After that, we weren’t able to get hold of him for several days.  Couldn’et get through to him by calling, messages sent unreplied, and the usual online appearances came to a halt.  Only till yesterday did my family’s call reach him.  Phew! What a relief…I thought we’d never get to know his whereabouts…

So, in the meantime of waiting news from him …the only way of knowing what’s going on in his area was through the media depicting what’s going on in Egypt, instead of getting firsthand input from Dromey.

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If you take a look at the mass media like this video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T0bDBotP_tk&feature=related

…or this one:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQD-X9G9xfk&feature=topvideos

…or maybe this one:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsh4quDRx28&feature=related

..You’d probably get the impression that these protestors are crazy and irrational.

Think again.

One would only reach to that extent for a reasonable pushing reason, because it’s not only one person going at it….it’s THOUSANDS of people.  Citizens would only go to such heights if they are excessively, totally, immensely discouraged and frustrated with the country’s political system and its politicians.

…and it’s obvious the citizens have had enough already.  Hosni Mubarak’s 30-year dictatorship has been a great torture for Egyptian citizens.  Under military rule for so long (Mubarak was an air force officer before he became a politician), Egyptian citizens experienced utmost oppression from the Capitalist government.  The ruling system had been going on for decades…even during Mubarak’s predecessor, Anwar Sadat’s reign.

If that’s not enough, the whole world knows that it’s because of Mubarak that aid to Gaza through the Rafah border crossing won’t get through.  Thus, deceitfully helping crash hopes of the Palestinians for yielding help from those wanting to aid through land routes.

Citizens will not tolerate anymore!

Muslims and non-muslims alike are now battling to overthrow the oppressing Capitalist government.  Anyone who has any ties with the American or Israeli government is a BIG NO NO for the Egyptians.  It is apparent that the road to arise the truth will not be a pretty and easy one.  Whatever happens to Egypt will again affect all nations, as it did for Tunisia and Gaza.  May the whole world see the oppression that’s being overthrown, and one day be united in going against what’s wrong.

Egypt, we’re all praying for the best for your people.  Help open the eyes of the World to lead truth to us all…

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Dromey…come back home soon.  Hope Malaysia takes action as soon as possible in fetching you there.  May ALLAH get you home safely and determine the best for you back here in Malaysia… Ameen ya RABB…

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This Day is Yours! Grab it!

Posted by nuruliman45 on February 1, 2011

THIS DAY IS YOURS DON’T THROW IT AWAY

May Allah Bless You,
“To the world you might be one person, but to one
person you just might be the world”

For all the negative things we have to say to selves
Allah has a positive answer for it.

You say: “It’s impossible”
Allah says: All things are possible

You say: “I’m too tired”
Allah says: I will give you rest

You say: “I can’t go on”
Allah says: My grace is sufficient

You say: “I can’t figure things out”
Allah says: I will direct your steps

You say: “I can’t do it”
Allah says: You can do all things

You say: “I’m not able”
Allah says: I am able

You say: “It’s not worth it”
Allah says: It will be worth it

You say: “I can’t forgive myself”
Allah says: I FORGIVE YOU

You say: “I can’t manage”
Allah says: I will supply all your needs

You say: “I’m afraid”
Allah says: I have not given you a spirit of fear

You say: “I’m always worried and frustrated”
Allah says: Cast all your cares on ME

You say: “I don’t have enough faith”
Allah says: I’ve given everyone a measure of faith

You say: “I’m not smart enough”
Allah says: I give you wisdom

You say: “I feel all alone”
Allah says: I will never leave you or forsake you

You say: “Nobody really loves me”
Allah says: I love you

May Allah Be Pleased With all muslims… Ameen.

I love each and every muslim for the Pleasure of Allah !”It is in rememberance of Allah that the heart finds peace”

Fee Aman Allah

Mohd Nuruddin Mohamed,
Kubang Kerian

 

Original post: http://nuruddinzenki.blogspot.com/2011/01/this-day-is-yours-grab-it.html

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